What am I good at? Ummm

What am I suppose to do with my life? Seriously…I’ve been searching for the answer to that question for a long, long time. Of course, I had things I wanted to be when I grew up. Doctor, Astronaut, Fireman, Police Officer, Actor, Artist. These seem to be typical “when I grow up” dreams, I suppose. Directly out of high school I enrolled in community college with zero understanding of what that even meant. Obviously, I didn’t have a major chosen and I wasn’t even thinking about it. General courses and working as a waitress were my world. Less than a year into it all I met the love of my life and became pregnant. When my son was old enough to attend preschool, I began taking classes at Kansas State University. My entire life had shifted and I approached college with a refreshed understanding of its importance this time. It’s not that I didn’t take it seriously the first time around, I think for me, having a baby forced me to mature to a level where I could appreciate the experience. I actually enjoyed learning and participating in my classes. Side note, when I discontinued classes years before I had not done it properly, so this meant I had to take almost all of my general courses a second time. My first few semesters at KSU I focused on choosing a “realistic” major I could see myself making a living doing one day. I had originally been interested in Anthropology (not the store ?) but, at the time didn’t see a future career path so, after a few semesters of open option,  I switched to Advertising and Mass Communications. I did this for a couple of reasons, for one I thought I could easily move to Kansas City and find a great job, and I also was drawn to the idea of being able to use my creativity as more than simply a hobby. If you know me, you know, I did not move to Kansas City and I was not successful in finding a job here that had anything to do with my major. I know, I know, a lot of people don’t get jobs that correlate with their degree. The job I did accept after college was absolutely crippling. I will not dive into any specifics because, well, I’m a lady ?. Let’s just say, the interview process described a much different role than what I actually was hired to do and the amount of disorder and stress I experienced there is indescribable. I did learn several important lessons in my time there for which I’m thankful for now. ➖I learned that a business can look beautiful and successful from an outside perspective and be completely crumbling inside. ➖I learned that not all adults behave like adults. ➖And lastly, I learned that some people are very easily manipulated. I did make a couple of great friends while I was there, and this was definitely the only upside to the experience. 

I now know what I will not do for a job, I will never again compromise my happiness or morals. Life is way too short!

Currently, I am a stay at home mom. There are days I love it and days I crave something more/different. I also need to figure out a future career path because the time flies so fast and before I know it Cy will be in kindergarten. Anxiety floods in just thinking about it because I still have no idea what I want to be when I grow up…I’m 31 btw ?. I worry that by the time I do figure it out it will be too late. I’ll have two kids grown and out of the house and no idea what to do with my life.

?Recently, I had an idea about the way I think about what I should “do”. I tend to get stuck on asking myself what I’m good at- I have no idea. Shifting the question to ask what I enjoy doing should help. I can make a list a mile long with things I love to do. Maybe once I do this I will feel more confident about answering which of the things I love that I’m also good at.

Here’s a few things I’m going to put on my list

  • listening and helping to solve a problem
  • making people laugh
  • making people feel important
  • decorating
  • creating anything
  • writing
  • taking photos
  • traveling
  • anything to do with fitness

And so much more!

Do you have any tips on how to find your passion or dream job? If you do please share!

14 thoughts on “What am I good at? Ummm”

  1. Are we the same person? I mean, I really related to your post. I have found my calling, but it wasn’t until a few years ago and it took writing a pros list like you did (I fell upon consulting & counseling as we share similar traits). I think your role right now as SAHM is probably the toughest one yet. Rewarding, but the most challenging work sometimes. Awesome read.

    1. Oh my gah I’m so glad you found your passion!! That’s so awesome and gives me hope! Sounds like something I would also love to do!

  2. It’s never too late to figure out what you want to do. People change careers all the time. Our interests change, it’s normal. I like your list of things you like. That’s a great start! As for Anthropology…that’s what I have my master’s in. I’ve been an archaeologist for 12 years and love it. I blog on the side, but would never give up archaeology.

  3. Wow! Just wow! I’ve never heard anyone’s story who sounds so similar to mine. I went to college not knowing what to do. Chose elementary ed. Hated the math classes and switched to Broadcast Journalism bc I thought I could move to Nashville, which didn’t happen bc my husband has a farm that’s been in his family for 150+ years. I went back and got my teaching degree for high school history but I can’t find a job in that either. I feel defeated and scared but I know I love blogging and im good at social media. I need to make a list of things I’m good at so I can feel better too. Thanks girl!

  4. I love your honest point of view with being a mum and wanting a life of your own too. Good luck with your goals, I’m sure you’ll reach them!

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