What am I suppose to do with my life? Seriously…I’ve been searching for the answer to that question for a long, long time. Of course, I had things I wanted to be when I grew up. Doctor, Astronaut, Fireman, Police Officer, Actor, Artist. These seem to be typical “when I grow up” dreams, I suppose. Directly out of high school I enrolled in community college with zero understanding of what that even meant. Obviously, I didn’t have a major chosen and I wasn’t even thinking about it. General courses and working as a waitress were my world. Less than a year into it all I met the love of my life and became pregnant. When my son was old enough to attend preschool, I began taking classes at Kansas State University. My entire life had shifted and I approached college with a refreshed understanding of its importance this time. It’s not that I didn’t take it seriously the first time around, I think for me, having a baby forced me to mature to a level where I could appreciate the experience. I actually enjoyed learning and participating in my classes. Side note, when I discontinued classes years before I had not done it properly, so this meant I had to take almost all of my general courses a second time. My first few semesters at KSU I focused on choosing a “realistic” major I could see myself making a living doing one day. I had originally been interested in Anthropology (not the store ?) but, at the time didn’t see a future career path so, after a few semesters of open option, I switched to Advertising and Mass Communications. I did this for a couple of reasons, for one I thought I could easily move to Kansas City and find a great job, and I also was drawn to the idea of being able to use my creativity as more than simply a hobby. If you know me, you know, I did not move to Kansas City and I was not successful in finding a job here that had anything to do with my major. I know, I know, a lot of people don’t get jobs that correlate with their degree. The job I did accept after college was absolutely crippling. I will not dive into any specifics because, well, I’m a lady ?. Let’s just say, the interview process described a much different role than what I actually was hired to do and the amount of disorder and stress I experienced there is indescribable. I did learn several important lessons in my time there for which I’m thankful for now. ➖I learned that a business can look beautiful and successful from an outside perspective and be completely crumbling inside. ➖I learned that not all adults behave like adults. ➖And lastly, I learned that some people are very easily manipulated. I did make a couple of great friends while I was there, and this was definitely the only upside to the experience.
I now know what I will not do for a job, I will never again compromise my happiness or morals. Life is way too short!
Currently, I am a stay at home mom. There are days I love it and days I crave something more/different. I also need to figure out a future career path because the time flies so fast and before I know it Cy will be in kindergarten. Anxiety floods in just thinking about it because I still have no idea what I want to be when I grow up…I’m 31 btw ?. I worry that by the time I do figure it out it will be too late. I’ll have two kids grown and out of the house and no idea what to do with my life.
?Recently, I had an idea about the way I think about what I should “do”. I tend to get stuck on asking myself what I’m good at- I have no idea. Shifting the question to ask what I enjoy doing should help. I can make a list a mile long with things I love to do. Maybe once I do this I will feel more confident about answering which of the things I love that I’m also good at.
Here’s a few things I’m going to put on my list
- listening and helping to solve a problem
- making people laugh
- making people feel important
- creating anything
- taking photos
- anything to do with fitness
And so much more!
Do you have any tips on how to find your passion or dream job? If you do please share!